loving another

I stare at the floor, tears rolling down
he hates my tears, he hates my frown
i can't help but hurt, i don't see what he sees
he sees beauty, like a beach breeze
I see pain with ugly scars of the past
our love though, developed so fast
the love takes away all the pain and scars
keeps me flyin high, like a drunk at the bars
i want to see myself through his eyes,
maybe then the self esteem would rise.
don't feel like I deserve such love
don't deserve a feeling sent from above

love saves me

love is my release
love allows me to feel alive
with all the pain, love heals
with all the disappointment, love is pride
there is no greater feeling,
than to feel loved by someone i love
he knows his name, he knows my pain
he loves me anyway, he'll never let me go
love saves me

wishing for you to mend this

wish you would mend what you hurt
wish you would face what you've done
why can't you talk to me face 2 face
why can't you allow me to let it out
i never asked to be in the middle
i never asked to find what i found
you leave me frustrated,
and i open my mouth but there is no sound
can't seem to speak my mind
JUST WANNA SCREAM

is my pain not enough?

you know the pain you've brought
you know the tears you've caused
why can't that be enough
if your own flesh n blood isnt enough
what will it take for you to stop
what will it take for you to grow up
you are hurting your own family
what will cause your eyes to see
the pain you bring me every time

a special world with just you and me
a special bond one cannot see
we have each other to talk and hold
the love we share is more precious than gold
you never fail to make me smile
could be wrapped in your arms for a while
never want to lose a love like this
our relationship as precious as a first kiss
we can get through anything, we'll never part
we've been coping with obstacles from the start
from the beginning we've had a bond
of eachother, we've always been fond
we started out as just cool close friends
then the line started to blend
friends slowly turned into way more
i knew it was love, i was so sure
i go through life thinking about us
every decision, with you i discuss
i want us to have a future and be content
our love to be set in cement

Ghandi Quote

Dear Gandhi,  what happens when there's so much change you want to see, that you don't even know where to start? 

I am at a point in my life where I see things so differently. I almost want to do as much as I can to change the negativity I see, but who has enough time?  or the energy?  I want to make a difference through teaching but life threw me a hardball and decided to make teaching jobs impossible to achieve. 

I love the butterfly in this picture<3